Kamis, 22 Juli 2010

Goodbye.. :(



My relationship with Antonius Halim ended, was the first I have to prepare hearts for the day. actually quite sad to let go that's been with me for over a year.
sometimes I think of the days without him. could i through this new situation, whether I could let him go with another woman later. but I have to go through all this even though difficult. because this is the best for both of us. I just hope his happiness, and I do not want to because of this he became sad.
Sometimes I
can not bear want stream of tears, but I'd never shown before him, I always laugh and make him think I was the bad one, let him not too fond of me. he'll be able to release me. My heart is very sore when I need to be rude to him, being cold and act like did not want to know anymore.

I want to apologize to him, and I do not want to hurt him more deeply.
R
epeatedly I told him, if we are destined, we shall be together again in the future. currently there are too many differences between us, we are different religions, different principles and must through a long distance relationship.

I was sad to think that sometimes his mother did not like me, yes because of differences in religion, I've tried but my heart can not be forced.
maybe they'll say I'm selfish and will not budge, I'm not humble and stubborn. but this is me, I prefer that my family and took off a man who really cared about.
huaah I can not continue typing, while listening to songs tae yeon Can you Hear me, my tears really want to drop.
enough here first, I want to rest my heart.
i just try to think
:

The Greatest experience we can ever have is usually not a welcomed one at that time..

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a song for you :

Even small pains make me teary

My heart cries out
When i pass by you
You are the whole world
i dream for only you
i hold my breath in front of you

just like you and i aren’t meant to be
just like it’s merely a moment passing by
You pass by me so easily
Even if i can’t go up
and take just a step

You make me walk around
You make me cry
Like an idiot, like a child
Just laugh it off

The closer i get
More scared i get
But this love cannot be stopped

Why is it just my love that is slow
Why is it just my love that is hard
Even if i’m by your side
You are the whold world
i look at only you
i stare into distance in front of you

Just like you’re the end for me
Just like you’re my last moment
You pass by me so easily
Even if i can’t go up
and take just a step

You make me walk around
You make me cry
Like an idiot,like a child
Just laugh it off

The closer i get
Morescared i get
But this love cannot be stopped

From far away
if i can stare at you just for a moment
That is love

When this waiting and yearning
Gets you, and you can hear it
Just pretend nothing happened
The closer i get to you more scared i get
But this love cannot be stopped..

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